21w1d: Reflection

I keep reflecting about what happened in the last 24 hours. So much information has been given to me that I'm trying to process it all. I believe that the hospital is now preparing themselves rather than preparing us. They need the right specialists on hand in case he needs heart or kidney surgery when he comes out. They didn't even push the amnio because they can't do anything to change if he has Down's Syndrome. I think the amnio is more for the parents rather than the medical staff.

I am trying my hardest to take everything as it is. I am ok one minute and I am sad another minute. We are given things we can handle and we are blessed with whatever we get. I was so sure that we were having twin girls and we got one of each. After reading success stories, I was so sure that the boy was ok with just that one marker of the fluid in the neck. But since more markers have appeared, I am not so sure he is ok now. Too bad nothing can change the situation ~ if there is something that I can eat or if I have to exercise 3 hours a day I would. I just hope and pray he comes out happy and healthy with or without Down’s Syndrome. We will love him just the same if not more.